id like to think all the greats go through a time of sadness and misdirection but its how they bounce back or push from it that is what motivates them. id like to think that this is in my future but i dont know. some people turn to god some turn to drugs, it doesnt matter. what if you want to do it by yourself? well then i feel that luck must be on your side. i have been telling myself that this is the year that i will change, and actually be happy but i have been clouded by sadness this entire time. id say fuck it to my problems but if i just left them behind, id be forgotten by all. my worst fear is that everyone can know me and even my closest friends will forget about me.